Do I call you, ‘friend’?

[I]t seems easier to love people who seem more similar to us than different.  We gravitate towards people who look like us, talk like us, think like us.  And these are the people in our lives whom it is easier for us to quickly call friends.

Do you agree?

I do this, more than I want to admit.

Sure, I smile at people I don’t know at the skateboard park while my kids zoom around, engage in chit-chat with parents of diverse beliefs when handing out meals during school lunch duty, hang out with my 80 year-old widowed neighbor in her cozy, tidy, little house.  But I save what seems to be the truer, deeper heart connection stuff for people whom, for reasons I’ve decided, seem safe.  And I choose to not engage, truly, with almost anyone else.

I decide, based on my set of narrow criteria, without even realizing it most of the time, whether a person is friendship material, or not.   And I miss out on opportunities to grow and trust fully in the Father’s plans for me, when I choose to not even ask Him with whom He calls me to engage  – and love.

Yesterday afternoon, tired and spent, after a long but fun mission trip meeting to prepare for our family’s trip to Tecate, Mexico, with 39 other people this summer, I thought of the beautiful diversity of our team, people I am just beginning to get to know.  From 60 year olds traveling alone, because their family members don’t want to come, to preteens and young families with toddlers, we all have amazingly different stories.  And it takes these meetings, preparing our hearts for being stretched while we are out of our comfort zones and serving far away from home, for me to remember the beauty of the lives all around me.  All the time.

For we sit and listen and share.  We want to learn each other’s stories.  We want to begin to discover pieces that the Father finds in His beloveds, all along.

When we let each other in, take the time to gather and listen and respond, in His name, we are friends, needless of whether we have much in common or not.

We have everything that’s important in common, don’t we?

 You are My friends if you do what I command you. No longer do I call you slaves, for the slave does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I have heard from My Father I have made known to you. You did not choose Me but I chose you, and appointed you that you would go and bear fruit, and that your fruit would remain, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name He may give to you (John 15: 14-16).

So I pray for the Father’s Spirit in me to move me more in tune with His will.  Let me be open, Father, to whomever You bring into my life.  For it is a lie that I have nothing in common with people I happen to not yet know and to whom I feel a stranger.  We actually each have everything in common — all brothers and sisters.

Some of us {and this is our job, friends} just don’t know it yet.

When he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing.  And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and his neighbors, saying to them, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep which was lost!’  I tell you that in the same way, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance (Luke 15: 5-7).

How are you challenged around the concept of “friendship” with people God brings into your life?

[C]ounting gifts:

  • my daughter’s homemade pink lemonade, the lemon squeezed between sticky hands and strawberry stems cut with a proudly held butter knife

  • skateboard park adventures — the first day of summer vacation

  • my husband working with passion towards the vision the Father gave us to write together, in our own space, behind the house, side by side
  • blue and green ribbon tucked away for surprise birthday gifts, homemade, by little girl hands.
  • the kids of the mission trip team tutored in how to make their own stomp rockets, from paper and painter’s tape, and my friend’s dear and patient husband, who tirelessly helped them
  • dear friends’ support and loving thoughtfulness

  • bicycle rides around the block, again and again, to tire out our dog, the wind in the faces of me and my son
  • my friend taking my kids out for an afternoon while I sit here, typing this, all by myself
  • playing catch-up, but loving the soaking I am doing in reading His word everyday, journeying toward reading each word of His in 90 days, and in community, too
Thank you so much for being here, reading this right now, friend.

Irresistible: The Joy Dare {gifts #133 – 153}

[A] week behind counting gifts, but here I go, this invitation to claim joy through choosing to see absolutely irresistible.  I want more.

133.  Bean bags, green and orange stacked side by side, where my two boys, not so little anymore, plan Nerf gun wars, read Harry Potter and scratch out plans for football plays and whom to play a joke on next.

134.  Three siblings’ hilarious silliness and falling into the bathtub when it is time to quiet down, be serious, brush teeth, and get ready for bed.

135.  Our adorable rescued dog puppy on the other side of the front door, tail wagging so fast that when he turns, it hits him in the face . . . and that tail just keeps going and going . . .

136.  Homemade love notes helping me remember what I treasure most about this husband, these children, this family.

137.  My oldest son walking with me and, when no one is looking, holding my hand.

138.  Packed up car a day ahead of time, ski gear piled in, and friends in our driveway at 4:10 am, to begin the fun caravan adventure to Utah to be blessed by the hospitality of more dear friends.

139.  Losing my patience with my son, and raising my voice, and hearing the Father’s voice remind me of His presence, how He is close, I am seen, and He loves me, here, still.

140.  More treasure hunt fun through the house, my oldest son searching for the new books he saved for and bought, each clue leading to a mad dash to find more clues under pillows, in dog bowls, on fences, and in freezer drawers.

141.  Banana nut bread dough mixed and poured into pans, my daughter’s hands reaching in for a beater to lick and a spoon to taste — and me joining in, too.

142. Our dear friend trusting me with his story, his concern with his son’s depression, and the hope he has that He will turn it around.

143.  Tears of frustration as I struggle to hang on to the old self, knowing I must lay myself down again, always, and this new self He gives is Life, nothing else.

144.  Beauty in blossoms, sunlight dancing — our pathway as we walk to school.

145. Secret Valentine exchange between Kindergartners, my girl’s face as she learns who has made her a Valentine and who loves being her friend.

146.  A love package dropped off at my friend’s door, the Father stirring me towards caring for another’s heart – always more important than any list of things to do.

147.  Surprise Jelly-bellies tucked away as love gifts for certain young, sweet tooths.

148.  “I luv you.  You mac [make] my hrart [heart] hape [happy].  I luv you.  Luv, Abby.”

149.  “Andrew and Oliver have been inseparable over the last few days . . .”, a letter from Oliver’s teacher about his new friendship, a boy we’ve known for years, whom we just love.

150.  6th birthday card love in the mail and sign she made, posted for two weeks on our door, a little girl’s delight.

151.  Buying a pink princess cake with my daughter for her sixth birthday, when time ran out to make one, and she loved it all the same.

152.  Father-in-law swooping in early to take our dog home with him, lovingly caring for him for the week we are gone.

153.  Missing my sweet friend, but knowing we will see each other soon.

What about you, His girl?  What gifts has He given you this past week?


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Momentary, lasting beauty: the Joy Dare {#70 – 90}

[C]ome away, now, and remember where He has been, what He has done.  Moments rush by or linger long, depending on what I choose to see.  I pray His light in me, His pace, that I may be present in the masterpieces of these days.  Here are moments where my eyes were open.  So much more to gather, to be gathered up, to see . . .

70.  Three pairs of blue eyes, framed by dark lashes, two little boys who make me fall deep inside, one little girl, light beckoning radiant joy.

71.  “Turquoise is my favorite color, just like you, Mommy.”

72.  Heaps of blue flannel pajama pants and cotton short sleeves spilling out of wicker laundry basket, onto bedroom floor.

73.  Crayoned family portrait, each of us holding hands and wearing brightly colored crowns.

74.  Snuggled up in my boy’s blanket my mom knitted them for Christmas, green, thick cotton hugging me as I sit at the counter in the dark kitchen, heeding whispers spoken, watching morning dawn.

75.  My mother’s love for baking bread and cooking, pots of beans and soups simmering on the stove.

76.  Fluffy, loving dog greeting with gentle kisses and a constantly wiggling tail.

77.  Kindergarten pick-up and hot, little hand gripping mine.

78.  Sharing the big cherry wood antique bed, snuggled in, safe and warm.

79.  My husband’s arms around me, strong arms holding me close.

80.  This old house, wood floors creaking beautifully underneath shuffling feet.

81.  Little boy and girl laughter, warmth rising, angels smiling, guarding at their posts.

82.  “Jesus loves me this I know” in the bathtub, plastic princesses at attention, getting splashed.

83.  “Trust Me child, I have not gone away, a voice crying in the wilderness.  That is not My voice. I am close, your very breath.”

84.  Candles illuminating darkness, gentle beacons ushering me close.

85.  Spider webs glistening on rafters outside our house, silk masterpieces hanging high.

86.  “Seek the Lord and His strength; seek His face continually.  Remember His wonders which He has done, His marvels and the judgments uttered by His mouth . . .” (Psalm 105: 4-5).

87.  “The Lord your God is in your midst, a victorious warrior.  He will exult over you with joy, He will be quiet in His love, He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy” (Zephaniah 3:17).

88.  Two little boys, one little girl on a field, at dusk, playing baseball, dancing ballet, swinging on monkey bars.  Dear friends sweep them away while I listen to His whispers, running through muddy paths home.

89.  Four mothers gathered, lifting up wretched hearts – beauty unfolding as prayers are given, in His hands aches made beautiful, worries curved light.

90.  A talk on the heart of the Beloved, our identity in Him, a friend’s beauty offered in vulnerability and faith as she speaks this weekend, at Captivating. Hot, grateful tears at His restoration and hope rush down.

What gifts can you count from this past week, this moment?  Blessings to you, friends, as we enter in to the beauty of this week.  Praying we each have eyes, His eyes, to see.

Here you can find my other lists of beauty.  . . . Want to join me in counting gifts, with Ann?

Unfolding Beauty: the Joy Dare {#28 – 48}

[I]n 2012 I am saying ‘yes’ to the Joy Dare,  hoping that in the slowing and the writing down, the uncovering of some of the traces of beauty in the everyday, I will see Him more.  And I want to.  I am desperate for Him.  The goal is listing 1000 gifts.  Click here for my beginning.  Below are some of the places gifts were unfolded this week:

28. Roasted tomato-basil soup ladled into bowls and Big Guy (grandpa) crowding around our kitchen counter, for dinner.

29. Round creamy spoonfuls of vanilla ice cream decorated with rich salted caramel sauce and fluffy whipped cream.

30. My eldest asking for a back rub and sharing with me bedtime whispers, up on his top bunk.

31. Sunny yellow paint in an almost 100 year-old bedroom, my five-year old daughter’s, where she lets me join her on her bed, and read.

32. Yellow crayoned onto white sheets of possibility, the lock color of fairies and princesses and ice dancers and my girl.

33. Graceful golden curves of the banana my boys actually agreed to eat and the bunches of little ones my daughter photgraphs at the farmer’s market.

34. Branches arching toward blue while I unleash our dog to chase squirrels up the trees.

35. Uneven dirt path where I run, cold morning air hitting my face.

36. Justin’s shoulder pressing into mine at church, knees touching, his breath my own.

37. Oliver’s song-making, laughter-inducing, dog-chasing voice both driving me crazy and calling me towards Home.

38. Our dog’s jingling collar at the foot of the bed, helping me rise and preventing me from hitting “snooze”.

39. Bedtime reading after the younger two have gone to bed, Justin’s voice carrying aloud to Jackson the magic of Treasure Island.

40. The hope of John 1:48 staying tucked within me: “And Jesus answered, ‘I saw you while you were still under the fig tree . . .’” , knowing He has always seen me and has never turned away.

41. The sound of my mother’s voice on the phone and also her words stretched out, written gifts, on the page.

42. Invitation to join in community with other sisters, wanting to bloom under the care of our Gardener — His voice, His word, His love leading on.

43. Favorite jeans ripped just a little at the knee when I slipped from the bottom step of the front porch.

44. Colored wooden letters to my friend that her daughter uses to spell out words that make her smile.

45. Mugs of hot coffee and tea as we sit, circled up, listening to what He gives.

46. The hope of learning more about the life of Louis Zamperini, the evil he endured, the Father’s healing of wounds, and the stunning beauty of forgiveness.

47. Two little boys, side by side, laughing over the antics of Jack Sparrow in the Lego Pirates of the Carribean game.

48. Stolen away moments, hands held, eyes trusting, old promises made new.

Won’t you join in and share two or three gifts here in the comments?  I am so grateful for your visit here, and I would love to share together the gifts He is pouring out in these lives of our, to pick up, claim, and see.

Bless you this week, His girls!

Gathering Joy — wanting to see {Joy Dare: #1 – 21}

[C]ollecting moments with eyes He gives me to see, joining Ann, this 2012, in the Joy Dare.  I begin here, scratching out gifts, aching to receive joy through a heart of gratefulness, partnership with Him, in humility and relationship.  Join me?  

  1. Perseverance in family relationships
  2. Missing intimacy with the Father and wanting to turn back to Him
  3. Willingness to see how desperate I am for Him, and turn
  4. Icy creek crackling underfoot
  5. Warm, cozy beds
  6. Justin’s “Jackson’s cowboy chili”
  7. “I’ve missed you, too”
  8. “We can begin again.”
  9. “I probably would have done the same thing.”
  10. Espresso maker
  11. Family tree pendant my husband gave me for Christmas
  12. Turquoise flower pot
  13. Beautiful Outlaw
  14. Words woven on a page
  15. Storehouse Full, beautiful white barn painted by my friend, on my wall
  16. Keys to a home He gave
  17. Leftover chocolate chip cookie dough
  18. Renewed passion for dancing with Him by the splashing, rushing river
  19. My mom calling me on the phone – walls of silence crashing down
  20. Justin playing with the kids while I work out and read and listen, in the cottage
  21. Abby, Ollie, and Jackson making paper mailboxes and filling each other’s up with letters of love.

22.  Golden sunlight through my daughter’s “lemony” hair as she taps a song onto inlaid stone mosaic, light blue, and white, and black.

23.  Reflection of my daughter and me in the school windows as she roller blades, white flowers she’s picked from the lawn in her hand.

24.  Fulton (our dog)’s shadow getting in my way as I “chase light with my camera” (beautiful words shared with me from a new, sweet friend).

25.  My little girl’s hand wanting mine as she learns to roller blade, even though it makes her lose her balance and she is more likely to fall.

26.  Light dancing on low, white fences on the way to school.

27.  Ollie-bear being the first to shuffle into the kitchen and greet me at the kitchen counter each day, letting me pull all of his new lanky self into my lap and hold him close.

What gifts could you count today?  I would so love to hear them. . . Bless you today, His girls.

Through the Fog

I will grab Your hand, Father.  Give me eyes to see.  Fog blankets this suburb, and I push quietly, gently, through.  I will see today.  I will see.  There may not be many words.  But there is a choice here; and each action, each decision, is a movement with — or away — from You.

“Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls” (Matthew 11:29).

I thank You for how you let me go — and wait — longing for my return.

You help me recognize for what, for Whom, I long.  But it is always up to me to choose.  And today, I remember what You said the last time I ran out into the morning –  sullenness,  hardness, anger framing this dark heart.  You cradled this beating heart in Your hands, reforming, softening this hardened clay, reminding me to look for what You’ve done.

“He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm” (Psalm 40:2).

 There is beauty already here.

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And simply this: I will keep looking.

Linking up today with Emily, at Chatting at the Sky — encouraged, by her, to see these gifts He gives, with open eyes, hearts, lives.

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Join me in looking? What are you choosing to see today?

Grateful

I love the freedom offered by Lisa-Jo in encouraging us to write, uninhibited, for five-minutes, and then allowing us to post it, in this safe place, here.  I crave this place of transparency, of honesty, of unedited thoughts melting out onto the page for others’ hearts to scoop up and see.  I love reading the linked-up posts at the Gypsy Mama and discovering anew the community of hope available when we all join together and share the struggles of these beating hearts.  I am posting late here because I have been largely unplugged this past week, as my family has been traveling the week of Thanksgiving.  But, here, a day late, are my thoughts on Lisa-Jo’s beautiful prompt:  Grateful.

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Fill me up, Father, with this heart of yours.  You are enough for me.  Your love is the quenching of thirst from down deep.  I get so distracted by looking for what You have for me – what You have for me to do.  And I forget that there is nothing You made me to do that can be accomplished without loving You.

I am grateful, Father, for how You turn me around.  Turn me around, now, I pray.  My heart heeds deception in the dark, forgets for what it thirsts.

And I fall, Father.  I fall. {And a part of me wants this, this falling deep into You.  And part of me is afraid.  Take that part away.}

Let me fall now, grateful for falling.

Let me fall now, grateful for how much I need You.

Let me fall now, grateful for how lost I am without You.

Let me fall now, grateful for Your love that takes this lost sheep and wraps her back up in Your arms.

Let me fall now.  Tuck me back into the fold.

What are you grateful for, His girls? I would love to hear what is on your heart.

Morning Psalm

Father, empty me of myself.  I want to hear Your voice.

Father, empty me of myself, I want to love with Your heart.  I want nothing to get in the way.

Father, empty me of myself.  Let me forget me to love like You love.

In the slowing, let me seek You.  In the music of children’s voices, hugs and conflicts, laughter and tears, let me find You.

Show me what it means to serve.

Father, hide me from the enemy and keep my heart pure.  Search me to discern what in me pulls away from You.

Let nothing come between us, Father.  Let Your Spirit be my breath, my beating heart, my mind.  Let every thought be Yours.

There is freedom in deciding whether or not to be my own.  There is freedom in  belonging to You.  There is freedom in being seen and known and pursued and adored.

I know who I am in You.  I know what I love.  You battled those fears that kept me from discovering my heart — the passions for exploring mountains and hearts, listening and writing, soaking in quiet and moving fast, in sacred song.

I hear Your voice breathing life.  I see Your hands touching my heart.  I behold Your beauty singing majesty and grace.

You cannot be contained, yet You reach down and hold me, Your Spirit lifting me.  I am a new creation.

In the sacrifice, in the love that is love, the old falls away.  I behold newness.  I walk in newness.  I will look up and rejoice for the new works You are doing.  I will claim the gifts You bring.

In Your eyes I am cleansed.  You wash away my sin and draw me to You.  You do not repay me according to my choices of selfishness.  You do not give me what I deserve.

You restore in me a new heart, a life that sings of joy and promise.

No matter where I am, You are there.  No matter how far away from You I feel, Your eyes never leave me.

How great is Your love Father, that each child, each work of Your hands is glorious and perfectly made!

I will seek You and I will find You.  I will listen for You and I will hear.  I will believe and walk in Your ways, with Your guidance and love in me.

I do not go alone.  My heart is protected, shielded inside Your love.  I am the beloved child who is gathered up and shown how to love with a love that reaches beyond understanding.

Your kingdom lives in me.  You give me life.  All glory, all praise, all love comes from You.

You Are Made

You are made by the One who paints the sky each day you rise.

You are made by the One who breathes life into you and calls you to wake, to turn, to see, to rejoice, to dance.

You are made by the One who beckons you to follow, to watch His footsteps, not the path ahead.  The path is for Him to see, and He is for you to trust.

You are made by the One who holds you and lifts you and challenges you to go where He goes, reminding you that you are perfectly designed, exactly what He intended, that you are good. He sees beyond what you see and melts when He looks into your eyes.

You are made by the Glorious One who has good things in store for you, who reminds you there is no need to fear — to worry about tomorrow, to feel any doubt about getting through.   He is your warrior, your True One, your Rock.  He does not leave you.  He does not fail.

You are made by the Creator — forming with His hands your hands, with His hands your feet, with His hands your face and your beautiful heart.  Each part of you is exquisitely designed, a masterpiece.

You are made.

You are made.

You are made by the One to worship, with all that He is made you to be, the One who deserves all praise.  You are made for His delight, and your delight rests in worshiping Him.  You are made, beautiful one.

It is enough that you are made.

Here is a song my dear friend, Julie, gifted to me on my birthday yesterday.  It is called “Intimacy”, by Jonathan David Helser.  Please listen, with me, and join in the celebration of the Maker and with appreciation for what He has designed.  You are beautiful and adored, perfectly made.  Sweet blessings to you this weekend.  (And Happy Father’s Day!)

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Love,

Jennifer

In the Painting: Deep Breathing

Sunlight splashes, laughter, the bees humming near my ear.

You are mine.

Gold-yellow poppies, stretching to the glory of Your sun.

You are mine.

Caresses of the cheek, fluffy clouds scattered over blue canvas hanging in majesty-turned love.

You are mine.

Doves, a pair, sitting on wooden fence, pale greenish feather dust around the bright dark eyes, love-birds around the chain my parents gave me when I was four.

You are mine.

Smallish hand in mine, grasping tight, chatter-chatter melody as the scooter rumbles on the pavement and we stop to take a photo of glory.

You are mine.

Purple bouquets planted in rows, four-square yellow ball bounding toward me as I squint into the afternoon light, heat resting on my arms as I reach and grab and throw again.

You are mine.

Glory meets glory, heaven and earth collide, Your heart beating as the voices rise to meet You, paint brushes of beauty in Your hand.

The words above were sketched out in five-minutes, as I participated in Lisa-Jo’s Five-Minute Friday.  The topic is Deep Breath, and the above is my deep breathing.   I was inspired to write about the walk I took yesterday with my daughter, and the moments with my sons after school, after reading Sara Glitzen’s post, “Please Don’t Miss It,” over at (in)courage.   Please go visit her beautiful, inspiring message.  Then, when you are done there, I invite you to join me in writing for 5-minutes and sharing it over at Lisa-Jo’s The Gypsy Mama.  I am so grateful for how our words help each other see.

Blessings to you this Friday and this weekend!

Love,

Jennifer

 

The Story We Tell

Yesterday I was invited to participate as the prince in the “dinner-feast  with the prince and princess”, a play performed to the audience of stuffed horses, unicorns, and puppies.  My daughter, five-years old, dressed me in a crown and asked me to bow to her, the princess, and we danced in the light of late morning, ducking behind the rocking chair in the corner when it was time to exit the stage.

And I enter this world, where magic lives, the hand of a child grasping mine, dropping the other roles that consume me so easily and becoming, instead, the pursuer of the princess, the dancer who joins his beloved at the ball.

Music of the apple-blossom fairy swells and my daughter twirls and knows she is beautiful, my delight.  I know that watching her, seeing her, participating with her, in the dance, when she asks, is how I am most needed now.  The other to-dos, pressing, must wait.   This moment, entering in, slows the hurry of the things less of the heart.  Oh, but, sadly — and this shows the truth of my struggle– it is so hard for me to stay.   The pressure of what I think needs to get done this day makes me flee too soon.   And the music of my heart stops as I let my agenda, not my Father’s, dictate what I do.  Jesus, forgive me:  let me say ‘yes’ to this dance You offer with You.

So many moments I squeeze short, opportunities to stay with Him, heeding His voice, trusting His pace.  My daughter, asking me to stay, to keep dancing, sees my pace and asks me to slow.  Dancing is a response of the body to the heart. “Look, mommy, I am telling a story without talking.”  (Oh, beautiful, I see!)  And I watch and see what she means.

What story do I tell her, in my running from moment to moment, addressing the present in a flurry of activity with the eye of my heart on the next?  I voice whispers, “Stay, heed the music being offered”.  Do I stop often enough to hear the music playing in my heart?  Am I heeding the music He brings?

The music of the heart–the dance He invites me to dance with Him– might be full of twists and turns, fancy footwork, and complicated rhythm.   But maybe not.   Maybe it’s a slow dance, a lullaby, a nursery rhyme, the soft beating of a heart. Whatever music He sings promises a story of beauty and hope, of redemption and joy. Open my heart, Father.  I want to hear it.

My dance of this life tells a story.  I can participate with Him, or away, and my heart with Him, in response to His music in me is the story where I am fulfilled, present, soaking up the words He gives, not critical of the beginning, anxious for the end.   And this is the story I want to present to the Father, the story of the heart that gives His life to others, the story I want my daughter to read.


Voice Rising: Celebrate!

I stand before the empty tomb.  I don’t deserve this.  We don’t deserve this.

“I know, but I love You.  I love You because you don’t deserve this.  This is why I did this, why I give it all for you, because I love you.  And one can’t deserve love, can’t demand love, cannot expect love, with a heart that is deserving. I am yours.  You are mine.  I want you and you don’t deserve this.  You don’t deserve my Son.  And that is why He came.  That is why I come now, for you.  And you celebrate my Son’s rising, His coming, His abandonment of Himself to gain back what He already had, what was never lost.  My love cannot be lost.  It was His taking on all of your sin, all of the sin from the beginning, all of the sin from beyond what you will ever see, what you could ever imagine.  My Son drank the cup of bitterness for you.  For you He died.  For you His body was torn. For you, my eyes turned away because I could not look on such sin.  Sin separates hearts from Me.  And My son separated Himself from Me, let Himself be separated from Me, endured separation, so you will never have to tolerate it, as you never could.

Yes, you do not deserve this, this life.  Rejoice, Rejoice in this Freedom!  The freedom He brings with His rising.  Let Him rise in your heart today, this night, awaiting the celebration of His rising, in the morning. My daughters, My sons, I come and the darkness is pierced.  You are not in darkness any longer when you look into My face.  Cast it down, that sin.  Do not be separate from Me.  The veil was torn,  Nothing can separate me from you.  My Son’s broken body took away all separation.  Nothing else remains but My love.  No sin remains, when you chose Me, when My heart becomes enough for you to stand, to sing, to love.  (How can you love without me?)  My children of the desert, lift up your songs of praise!  Lift up your voices in rejoicing!  My Son has come! He came!  And I come for you. I stand before you now, your God, mighty to save.  Mighty to save.

The voice of the lonely crying out in the darkness, I hear you.  The voice of the despairing calling out from the desolate land, I hold your hand.  Crying one, lost without hope, I am your hope.  Cast all else away.  I am your comfort, your sword, your shield when things are hard.  I see it all, My child.  I do not walk away. I do not leave you.  Nothing separates Me from you. My cherished one, what cross do you bear?   What name do you call in the night, when all seems too much?  Lonely hearts, you are Mine.  I am your warrior, standing tall in the battle.  I go to battle for you, child.  You don’t have to do it alone.

Sheep, I gather you up,  Now when you hear my call, do not hesitate to come running.  The voice of your Creator is the only one for you to heed.  I give you the food you need, the rest you seek.

Yes, you are weak.  You are not strong.  Beautiful ones.  I  hold your face in My hands.  I love to look at you.  Celebrate this day, holy ones.  I rise with you!  My son came, the Risen One!  He did this all for you!   Now there is so much to celebrate!  So much to yearn for, for My heart in you to see, to experience, in this world that is not lost with my people here, whom I love.  Nothing is lost that I do not find. Come, children, my words in you rise.  I call out for you to hear.”

We celebrate Your rising, Jesus!   We rejoice for this life You give–all that You give, all that You love, all that we don’t deserve, this gift that can never be repaid.

Turning Inward, Going Out

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California skies in March are not usually so continually wet where I live, the dripping from the roof a melody, the trees across the lawn swaying in the bluster of the wind.

The sky is dark and I watch the morning turn,  blind darkness to awaiting day.   I take You in, Father.

Let me take all of this in.  The symphony outside, the beauty of renewal, of unfolding life.  The warmth you give us inside this house, covers and warm clothes and food in  the refrigerator and voices that laugh and whine and cry. My heart is full, this life full, but only when You are here.

So many blessings, Father, each moment a treasure I didn’t earn: Each whisper, each cuddle under blankets–my children are next to me now, with books spread on the carpet as I pray for You to come and keep me close, keep me turned.

Let my heart be turned to You, inward to know Your voice, outward to love like You, Jesus.  My weakness is used by You, Father, my dependence on You will allow me to love in this house and outside these walls. There is so much You bring, Father.  And so much I can do to love–again when I stay turned, when I stay turned and close to You.

We need You, Father, we need You desperately.  While I stay warm and dry and fed, now, Father, there are so many who need food and shelter, help and hope.  Help us to heed Your voice in us, Father.  Help us to go and to love in Your name, offering Your hope and mercy and love.  All of these moments, each gift back to You.  Soften our hearts–let us hear You and respond when You call.   Remind us of the difference between what we need and what we want.  Desperation for You, Father, holding loosely these gifts You give–holding them only so that we can be filled with You and give You away.

Where are you turned?  How does He fill you now?

What will you give away?

 

Hearts Together Take Flight

“Behold, I am making all things new ”  Revelation 21:5

Hearts Together Take FlightThe light dances off the flowers in the back yard.

Spring is coming, Father.  Let it enter me.   The birds are giddy, flitting back and forth across the grass, and I want to join in.  You invite me here, in this place, to stay with You.  My little guy is home sick with me, and as much as I hate him feeling down, I love this chance to be with him, have him all to myself.

Do you feel that way about me, Father?  Wanting me all to Yourself?

We spend the morning building legos, searching for a way to make all the small pieces fit together.  And I love that, searching for the coming together of things–working, playing alongside my son.  We listen to music–we know the same songs–and as we build next to the windows, light streaming in, we look outside, celebrating the freedom of the birds, their dance that invites us to Joy from us just watching.  We need both, Father–and we see both:  Your arms around us as we dance with this Joy, the coming together of our hearts with Yours, the freedom that comes from Your protection, Your guidance, Your song that gives us wings.

You show where Life is.  I am grateful.

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